Merry Christmas my beautiful readers! I hope you have a lovely day today. Remember it's about giving and not receiving. If you didn't get much remember that as long as you are breathing you're rich(to some degree). Eat. Laugh. Play. Enjoy.
Merry Christmas from my family to yours
MOT Girl xo
Tuesday, 25 December 2012
Tuesday, 11 December 2012
Reminder (Winter mood in june)
Hi,
So sorry about the long wait. I've been major busy. Exam season has started and I am going out of my mind. You know when you sit in lesson and all you seem to do is watch the clock and the more you look at it the slower it goes? Yup that's me in all of my lesson. I just can't seem to get it. I don't have any interest in school anymore. I really want to just take a break from everything you know. I just want to start on my path of something else.I don't really have a clear picture of what my future looks like an it scary but it just means it's open to change you know.
Anyway, so I joined a new church and that's been keeping me busy. I also joined the choir so we have practices every week. I love it. I have a solo on sunday and I'm think on doing Rivers Flow by Marvin Sapp. I've had two more solos in the past and I sung 'Shout to the Lord' and I sung 'How great is our God'. How great is our God was a back up because initially I wanted to do I Believe by James Fortune and FIYA but the rest of the choir didn't learn it soon enough so because of that, I forgot some of the word. But it's all good because it wasn't a complete train wreck. I still worked it.
And I bet a boy/man. He's a lot older but not too old which I'm okay with I guess. But enough of that. So I wanted to remind you guys about my friends story that she's writing on Wattpad called Winter Mood In June. I think it's really good. I actually can't wait to figure out what the whole deal with Kevin is and who is PARKER?
http://www.wattpad.com/7303708-winter-mood-in-june -- that is the link to the first chapter. The other chapters are DATE NIGHT, A PIECE OF FRANCO, GETTING TO KNOW YOU -BETTER, BONUS AND AGGRO, THE JUMPING OF THE GUN, CLARITY, MEET CLEO, TEEN DRINKING, LUSH LE DOUX, IT'S ALL ABOUT RAPHIQUE, VISION IN WHITE, FIVE MEN SIX FOOT, SUCKER PUNCH, PEACE, CAM-A-RRECTION and the latest CHINA DOLL.
Please please please check it out for her. She will love you lots and lots and lot.
thank you guys, I will give you an update soonish
MOT Girl xxx
So sorry about the long wait. I've been major busy. Exam season has started and I am going out of my mind. You know when you sit in lesson and all you seem to do is watch the clock and the more you look at it the slower it goes? Yup that's me in all of my lesson. I just can't seem to get it. I don't have any interest in school anymore. I really want to just take a break from everything you know. I just want to start on my path of something else.I don't really have a clear picture of what my future looks like an it scary but it just means it's open to change you know.
Anyway, so I joined a new church and that's been keeping me busy. I also joined the choir so we have practices every week. I love it. I have a solo on sunday and I'm think on doing Rivers Flow by Marvin Sapp. I've had two more solos in the past and I sung 'Shout to the Lord' and I sung 'How great is our God'. How great is our God was a back up because initially I wanted to do I Believe by James Fortune and FIYA but the rest of the choir didn't learn it soon enough so because of that, I forgot some of the word. But it's all good because it wasn't a complete train wreck. I still worked it.
And I bet a boy/man. He's a lot older but not too old which I'm okay with I guess. But enough of that. So I wanted to remind you guys about my friends story that she's writing on Wattpad called Winter Mood In June. I think it's really good. I actually can't wait to figure out what the whole deal with Kevin is and who is PARKER?
http://www.wattpad.com/7303708-winter-mood-in-june -- that is the link to the first chapter. The other chapters are DATE NIGHT, A PIECE OF FRANCO, GETTING TO KNOW YOU -BETTER, BONUS AND AGGRO, THE JUMPING OF THE GUN, CLARITY, MEET CLEO, TEEN DRINKING, LUSH LE DOUX, IT'S ALL ABOUT RAPHIQUE, VISION IN WHITE, FIVE MEN SIX FOOT, SUCKER PUNCH, PEACE, CAM-A-RRECTION and the latest CHINA DOLL.
Please please please check it out for her. She will love you lots and lots and lot.
thank you guys, I will give you an update soonish
MOT Girl xxx
Saturday, 17 November 2012
Date Night
Hi guys,
So today I hvae a date!! Eeeepp! So I am excited because the guy is such a sweetheart and he's just so gentlemanly. But I have a feeling it isnt going to be a very long date. I was supposed to meet him at 12 but I only just finished my babysitting gig and now I am at my dad's office.
I have a drink up later tonght at 7 so even if we do meet up, it won't be for very long. Anyway, so that's it for today. But I will up date soonish about the date and the drink up.
Have a great weekend guys.
MOT Girl x
So today I hvae a date!! Eeeepp! So I am excited because the guy is such a sweetheart and he's just so gentlemanly. But I have a feeling it isnt going to be a very long date. I was supposed to meet him at 12 but I only just finished my babysitting gig and now I am at my dad's office.
I have a drink up later tonght at 7 so even if we do meet up, it won't be for very long. Anyway, so that's it for today. But I will up date soonish about the date and the drink up.
Have a great weekend guys.
MOT Girl x
Thursday, 15 November 2012
I'm back!
Hi guys,
So I know I haven't written in a while but my life has just become insane. There is loads to tell and put out there which I will when I get the time. But I will tell you about my day today!
So I had college and had to do something called HAVERING ASK'S which is basically like BBC QUESTION TIME. This one was at my school. I had to look after some guest but it was nothing I couldn't handle. Bummer was I had to leave them and rush off to Stratford because I was doing the Twiathalon. So I'm pretty sure you know what it is but if you don't... It was the Twilight Saga. I stayed in the cinema for more than 10 hours watching ALL 5 twilight movies including the epic conclusion which was indeed EPIC and beyond.
I'm still buzzing from it. I got home about 3:30 am and now I cannot sleep hence why I am updating my blog at 5:32 in the morning. So I will have to read over my last couple of posts and update you from there. Also my friend is writing this book called 'Winter Mood In June' and I wanted you guys to check it out. It's on Wattpad so you can either google it or if you have the app on your phone you could just look it up. I think it's up to about 13 chapters. If not then could someone remind me to read it. I am hooked to it!!!! Cannot wait to find out what happened after she hit Kevin over the head with her stapler I think in her office! Lol. Jump on it.
But yes, this is me for now. You will hear from me soon or later.
- MOT Girl x
So I know I haven't written in a while but my life has just become insane. There is loads to tell and put out there which I will when I get the time. But I will tell you about my day today!
So I had college and had to do something called HAVERING ASK'S which is basically like BBC QUESTION TIME. This one was at my school. I had to look after some guest but it was nothing I couldn't handle. Bummer was I had to leave them and rush off to Stratford because I was doing the Twiathalon. So I'm pretty sure you know what it is but if you don't... It was the Twilight Saga. I stayed in the cinema for more than 10 hours watching ALL 5 twilight movies including the epic conclusion which was indeed EPIC and beyond.
I'm still buzzing from it. I got home about 3:30 am and now I cannot sleep hence why I am updating my blog at 5:32 in the morning. So I will have to read over my last couple of posts and update you from there. Also my friend is writing this book called 'Winter Mood In June' and I wanted you guys to check it out. It's on Wattpad so you can either google it or if you have the app on your phone you could just look it up. I think it's up to about 13 chapters. If not then could someone remind me to read it. I am hooked to it!!!! Cannot wait to find out what happened after she hit Kevin over the head with her stapler I think in her office! Lol. Jump on it.
But yes, this is me for now. You will hear from me soon or later.
- MOT Girl x
Wednesday, 12 September 2012
Let's get back to business!
Hey guys,
So I know I haven't written in a while but it has been a very interesting few week.
Okay so I got a phone call on my birthday day telling me to call a casting director which I did and after speaking to her for a while, she suggested I go off to Cardiff to meet her and do some photos and a showreel which I did. I went over to cardiff and I had a great time with her at her studio and it was great to speak to someone who is also in the industry and knows what they are talking about. That was on the 21st August. But Cardiff was the following Monday. Before I went my acting coach and I went all out. She gave me three different monologues to learn; Confusions by Alan Acyburn , The marriage of Bette and Boo by Christopher Durang and a piece from While you were sleeping. All three monologues were the usual time of like 3 mins but I had like 3 days to learn all three of them. It was hard because I had to balance work and other commitments but I think I did a pretty kiss ass job at it. They loved it and were very pleased with it so, pat on the back!
Umm, also I have been like dealing with personal stuff that I am not going to get into.But I started my second year of college and three days in and I feel like I am going to explode. There is just so much to learn in such little time. I have my first assessment in 2 weeks so fingers crossed. I've taken a step back from like a lot of things! Which is really heart breaking because I want to do EVERYTHING! but acting comes first then school so I am like on it. Super hungry to work hard and just achieve.
Speaking of school, My law teacher asked me to scare his AS students today. I thought that was really cute. I think it's good that they know what they are getting themselves into before like the middle of the course they decide to leave. That's just stupid! So yeah , I had like a 7 minute chat with like 18-21 students. It's only a matter of time before it starts dwindling to about 10-11. It was the same situation with my class last year but it's to be expected so hey!
So yeah, that's part of what I have been doing from the last post till now. I will try to write like every other day, just to keep you guys up to date. It's not a promise but I will try. Please forgive me.
MOT Girl x
So I know I haven't written in a while but it has been a very interesting few week.
Okay so I got a phone call on my birthday day telling me to call a casting director which I did and after speaking to her for a while, she suggested I go off to Cardiff to meet her and do some photos and a showreel which I did. I went over to cardiff and I had a great time with her at her studio and it was great to speak to someone who is also in the industry and knows what they are talking about. That was on the 21st August. But Cardiff was the following Monday. Before I went my acting coach and I went all out. She gave me three different monologues to learn; Confusions by Alan Acyburn , The marriage of Bette and Boo by Christopher Durang and a piece from While you were sleeping. All three monologues were the usual time of like 3 mins but I had like 3 days to learn all three of them. It was hard because I had to balance work and other commitments but I think I did a pretty kiss ass job at it. They loved it and were very pleased with it so, pat on the back!
Umm, also I have been like dealing with personal stuff that I am not going to get into.But I started my second year of college and three days in and I feel like I am going to explode. There is just so much to learn in such little time. I have my first assessment in 2 weeks so fingers crossed. I've taken a step back from like a lot of things! Which is really heart breaking because I want to do EVERYTHING! but acting comes first then school so I am like on it. Super hungry to work hard and just achieve.
Speaking of school, My law teacher asked me to scare his AS students today. I thought that was really cute. I think it's good that they know what they are getting themselves into before like the middle of the course they decide to leave. That's just stupid! So yeah , I had like a 7 minute chat with like 18-21 students. It's only a matter of time before it starts dwindling to about 10-11. It was the same situation with my class last year but it's to be expected so hey!
So yeah, that's part of what I have been doing from the last post till now. I will try to write like every other day, just to keep you guys up to date. It's not a promise but I will try. Please forgive me.
MOT Girl x
Monday, 20 August 2012
The day Before!
Hey readers,
I know Ii haven't written in a while and I hoped that there was a better reason than that I had just been busy but there isn't. I have been busy. So where to start?
How about with Borgloon? Okay so I wrote a short story on my Iphone while I was there so I could share it with you all when I came back. Since I have been back, I haven't had a lot of time to myself hence why there is no post about Borgloon. But not to worry. I will put something up today when I finish up at work about it or maybe sometime during the week.
So lets get down to the point of today's post. So it the day before my birthday and I am freaking out. Why? Okay, So I don't particularly like any major holidays or 'Big Days'. Valentines days, Birthdays, Christmas and blah. I have spent the last couple of birthdays crying or being really depressed or some emotion on the other side of the scale that wasn't happiness. After a few years of failed attempts of trying to make the only day that actually revolved around me the 'best it could be', I gave up on it. What was the point right? I mean it was only a day and then it was over. And it wasn't as if the was significantly special in any way. You were just about to day that you were a year older.It may sound completely bizaro to some of you but rest assured, when you have had disasters for birthdays as me , You will understand completely.
So because of that I am a little lets say on 'high alert' for my birthday tomorrow. I haven't made any plans because they are pretty pointless with everyone working and I really don't have any expectations from anyone to try make my day special so as far as I'm concerned, I am going to wake up and go to work and then come home and then the horrifying day that I countdown to and dread every year will be over.
BUT!! And this is a big BUT.... My mum did let something slip this morning when I went to pick up something from the kitchen. She went all sentimental on me talking about how my brother loved me so much and he would do a lot for me and all of that. -_-. I think I was pretty aware that my brother you know felt that way about me because otherwise... that's just fucked no? ... Yes! And then she was like ' He told me to keep quite about it all'... and I was just thinking, then WHY are you telling me? I just turned to her and said 'Mother, you have no restraint at all' and battered my eyelashes at her. To be honest, I really couldn't gather up enough emotions to feel excited about this 'surprise' since there was a 89% chance that there won't be one. Getting excited for things was not something that I was really into, especially when it involved a third party. I guess I don't trust anyone with my happiness but myself.
So, today I am planning to leave work as late as possible because I know tomorrow will drag on forever. Shit things always do. So, since I am at work. This is it for today. I will try and keep you updated on everything but I really needed to let this uneasy feeling go a little. Putting it out there is kinda helping.
MOT Girl x
I know Ii haven't written in a while and I hoped that there was a better reason than that I had just been busy but there isn't. I have been busy. So where to start?
How about with Borgloon? Okay so I wrote a short story on my Iphone while I was there so I could share it with you all when I came back. Since I have been back, I haven't had a lot of time to myself hence why there is no post about Borgloon. But not to worry. I will put something up today when I finish up at work about it or maybe sometime during the week.
So lets get down to the point of today's post. So it the day before my birthday and I am freaking out. Why? Okay, So I don't particularly like any major holidays or 'Big Days'. Valentines days, Birthdays, Christmas and blah. I have spent the last couple of birthdays crying or being really depressed or some emotion on the other side of the scale that wasn't happiness. After a few years of failed attempts of trying to make the only day that actually revolved around me the 'best it could be', I gave up on it. What was the point right? I mean it was only a day and then it was over. And it wasn't as if the was significantly special in any way. You were just about to day that you were a year older.It may sound completely bizaro to some of you but rest assured, when you have had disasters for birthdays as me , You will understand completely.
So because of that I am a little lets say on 'high alert' for my birthday tomorrow. I haven't made any plans because they are pretty pointless with everyone working and I really don't have any expectations from anyone to try make my day special so as far as I'm concerned, I am going to wake up and go to work and then come home and then the horrifying day that I countdown to and dread every year will be over.
BUT!! And this is a big BUT.... My mum did let something slip this morning when I went to pick up something from the kitchen. She went all sentimental on me talking about how my brother loved me so much and he would do a lot for me and all of that. -_-. I think I was pretty aware that my brother you know felt that way about me because otherwise... that's just fucked no? ... Yes! And then she was like ' He told me to keep quite about it all'... and I was just thinking, then WHY are you telling me? I just turned to her and said 'Mother, you have no restraint at all' and battered my eyelashes at her. To be honest, I really couldn't gather up enough emotions to feel excited about this 'surprise' since there was a 89% chance that there won't be one. Getting excited for things was not something that I was really into, especially when it involved a third party. I guess I don't trust anyone with my happiness but myself.
So, today I am planning to leave work as late as possible because I know tomorrow will drag on forever. Shit things always do. So, since I am at work. This is it for today. I will try and keep you updated on everything but I really needed to let this uneasy feeling go a little. Putting it out there is kinda helping.
MOT Girl x
Tuesday, 7 August 2012
Liar Liar Hearts on Fire!
Hey boys and Girls!
Guess what.. I'm in the mood to be very passive aggressive today. WHY? I have no clue! I've been soo up and down lately I have no idea.
But anyway, some juicy info for you young ladies that think boys are everything and you'll do anything to get your paws on to them. Babes take a chill pill. Boys are like false advertisement. They try their best to impress you and draw you in and as soon as you give them your attention then BAM! They screw you over!
And yes this has something to do with my love life. Isn't it always. Dear gosh! So after breaking up with my beau we tried working things out and he told me he loved me. Crazy idiot I know. I'm pretty sure I'm incapable of love , at least romantically. Anyway, I didn't say it back. I wanted to wait till he got back from his holiday with his friend who happens to be a girl sharing one room and one bed -.-.
Anyway, I told him that we could give it another shot if he comes back from his holiday without having shagged everything that moved. Gosh ! This guy is just hormonal. You know. I had a dream about them. I think it was a dream but I'm not sure. I saw them holding hands and kissing and it was like I was there in their room with them while they shagged and I did feel very disgusted and slightly betrayed but like I said. It's a dream.
However, it it so happened that it were true then I would laugh SO hard and applaud them. Honestly. Well I see him tomorrow so I can ask him (passive aggressively) what happened with a big smile on my face. :)
Totally interesting. Can't wait .....
MOT GIRL X
Guess what.. I'm in the mood to be very passive aggressive today. WHY? I have no clue! I've been soo up and down lately I have no idea.
But anyway, some juicy info for you young ladies that think boys are everything and you'll do anything to get your paws on to them. Babes take a chill pill. Boys are like false advertisement. They try their best to impress you and draw you in and as soon as you give them your attention then BAM! They screw you over!
And yes this has something to do with my love life. Isn't it always. Dear gosh! So after breaking up with my beau we tried working things out and he told me he loved me. Crazy idiot I know. I'm pretty sure I'm incapable of love , at least romantically. Anyway, I didn't say it back. I wanted to wait till he got back from his holiday with his friend who happens to be a girl sharing one room and one bed -.-.
Anyway, I told him that we could give it another shot if he comes back from his holiday without having shagged everything that moved. Gosh ! This guy is just hormonal. You know. I had a dream about them. I think it was a dream but I'm not sure. I saw them holding hands and kissing and it was like I was there in their room with them while they shagged and I did feel very disgusted and slightly betrayed but like I said. It's a dream.
However, it it so happened that it were true then I would laugh SO hard and applaud them. Honestly. Well I see him tomorrow so I can ask him (passive aggressively) what happened with a big smile on my face. :)
Totally interesting. Can't wait .....
MOT GIRL X
Monday, 6 August 2012
Mer!
Oh god! I feel like I could die right now! After a depressing Sunday with me by myself in a fairly sized house doing nothing but staring. I must have stared so much that my eyes stung when I tried to blink. Dear God!!!!
I have no idea where the depressing state came from that day. I had a decent morning. Well basically, Saturday night after going to the Olympics , I'm home in bed half conscious when I hear familiar voices and it only takes me seconds to realize that my sister and her boyfriend have come to stay for the night. GREEEEEAAAAATTTT :/.
So after a restless sleep , I DON'T want to wake up anytime before 11 at the latest on a Sunday morning. And guess what time I woke up.. 6 bloody 30! I don't even wake up that early when I need to go to work. Sods law i said out loud and screamed into my pillow! FUCK!!
Anyway, after a busy morning with everyone getting ready to do something of some sort I'm stuck being still. I'm on my bed, not moving at all. The only movement I manage is my blinking eyes. After everyone had left I grabbed my laptop and started watching movies for the WHOLE day. Eating was not on this depressing agenda. I grabbed a huge bottle of water from our fridge and that was my only source of 'food' until about 11. Like really? Who am I? Why all of a sudden do I feel a relapse. Depression is behind me for Godsakes. I thought about talking to my mum but I thought feck it. There is no way she will understand how I am feeling at this moment. To be fair, I didn't understand why I felt like that!
Let me not bore you all with my ranting. It's Monday and my spirits are seriously low. Feck!
MOT Girl x
I have no idea where the depressing state came from that day. I had a decent morning. Well basically, Saturday night after going to the Olympics , I'm home in bed half conscious when I hear familiar voices and it only takes me seconds to realize that my sister and her boyfriend have come to stay for the night. GREEEEEAAAAATTTT :/.
So after a restless sleep , I DON'T want to wake up anytime before 11 at the latest on a Sunday morning. And guess what time I woke up.. 6 bloody 30! I don't even wake up that early when I need to go to work. Sods law i said out loud and screamed into my pillow! FUCK!!
Anyway, after a busy morning with everyone getting ready to do something of some sort I'm stuck being still. I'm on my bed, not moving at all. The only movement I manage is my blinking eyes. After everyone had left I grabbed my laptop and started watching movies for the WHOLE day. Eating was not on this depressing agenda. I grabbed a huge bottle of water from our fridge and that was my only source of 'food' until about 11. Like really? Who am I? Why all of a sudden do I feel a relapse. Depression is behind me for Godsakes. I thought about talking to my mum but I thought feck it. There is no way she will understand how I am feeling at this moment. To be fair, I didn't understand why I felt like that!
Let me not bore you all with my ranting. It's Monday and my spirits are seriously low. Feck!
MOT Girl x
Friday, 3 August 2012
Dreamers Dream
'... are you the sweetest invention of a lovers dream... or are you truly as wonderful as you seem...'
Things are never really how we want it to be.And if we said in the spur of the moment that something was 'perfect' then you obviously deceived yourself. If I said my life was perfect then I would be lying.. BIG time. Truth is, I feel like my life is a long way from being perfect. There are a lot of things to do and while I've been able to do A LOT of things in my short life... it's not enough. It just hasn't been my one true love which is acting. Sure I go to my weekly routine classes and I love it but It's just not the same performing for one person. Acting is what I love to do. It keeps me sane and I love love love.
My acting class went great and I can't wait to get back to it. My instructor has so much faith in me that it's over whelming. I was so touched by her persistence in me finding work. I think she believes in me more than my own family. It's a little sad but I believe in myself and I believe in the bigger picture that God has for me. I am so touched and if this career picks up , I'll have my teacher to guide me through it.
That's it for now. My heart is still heavy with adoration that I cannot think properly.
Lots of love
MOT Girl x
Things are never really how we want it to be.And if we said in the spur of the moment that something was 'perfect' then you obviously deceived yourself. If I said my life was perfect then I would be lying.. BIG time. Truth is, I feel like my life is a long way from being perfect. There are a lot of things to do and while I've been able to do A LOT of things in my short life... it's not enough. It just hasn't been my one true love which is acting. Sure I go to my weekly routine classes and I love it but It's just not the same performing for one person. Acting is what I love to do. It keeps me sane and I love love love.
My acting class went great and I can't wait to get back to it. My instructor has so much faith in me that it's over whelming. I was so touched by her persistence in me finding work. I think she believes in me more than my own family. It's a little sad but I believe in myself and I believe in the bigger picture that God has for me. I am so touched and if this career picks up , I'll have my teacher to guide me through it.
That's it for now. My heart is still heavy with adoration that I cannot think properly.
Lots of love
MOT Girl x
Wednesday, 1 August 2012
short for a penny
Oh My Gosh!
My Larrd, I feel like this morning has just been the devils hand in my life! It has been one of those mornings where you want to throw yourself on the floor and roll around like a little child because nothing is going your way!
How can i get to the train station and get stuck! How is that possible? I was stuck there for half an hour because I was short of a PEENY!! Is this life? Let me tell you how it went.
Last night before leaving work, my boss said to come in early so I was like cool. I woke up extra early this morning so I could get in at the required time. Last night I topped up my Oyster so that I didn't have to stand in line to top it up. I get to the train station and try to enter and the thing reads 'see assistance'. I wait in line waiting to see what was wrong with my Oyster and it turns out I only had £0.35 on my Oyster. I could have died!!! I was just in shock. How in the world was that possible. I was fuming. I rummage through my bag and I find like 20p so I put it on but that only brings my balance up to 65p. I look into my purse and find a 5p coin and look deep into my bag and find 4p!! Really? I needed to have 70p before I could enter. And guess what, the bloody machine doesn't take 5p's. If I had a penny more, I could have asked the man at the station stop to give me a 10p in full. BUT I DIDN'T.
It's not like I didn't have money on my card because I did. I just didn't want to have to use it for only a penny! I was fuming. But I had no choice. I had to get to a cash point to take out money. The nearest free cash point was like 4 mins from the station. I had to get back on a bus and get to a bank to take out the money. Trust me I was not happy about that but I had to do it because I was already 20 minutes behind schedule. I bit my tongue , closed my eyes and put money on that mother!
I was soo ANGRY!! OH MY.But anyway, I was late to work by an hour but my boss didn't seem to mind which was just incredible AND get this. I don't know if you know about the district line but they come like waterworks, Literally one after the other. without like 2 mins between them but today I waited a whole 6 minutes! Like what the hell is up with that?
But anyway, I put on some gospel music and my heart calmed down singing 'Worthy is the Lamb'. Praise Jesus!
MOT Girl x
My Larrd, I feel like this morning has just been the devils hand in my life! It has been one of those mornings where you want to throw yourself on the floor and roll around like a little child because nothing is going your way!
How can i get to the train station and get stuck! How is that possible? I was stuck there for half an hour because I was short of a PEENY!! Is this life? Let me tell you how it went.
Last night before leaving work, my boss said to come in early so I was like cool. I woke up extra early this morning so I could get in at the required time. Last night I topped up my Oyster so that I didn't have to stand in line to top it up. I get to the train station and try to enter and the thing reads 'see assistance'. I wait in line waiting to see what was wrong with my Oyster and it turns out I only had £0.35 on my Oyster. I could have died!!! I was just in shock. How in the world was that possible. I was fuming. I rummage through my bag and I find like 20p so I put it on but that only brings my balance up to 65p. I look into my purse and find a 5p coin and look deep into my bag and find 4p!! Really? I needed to have 70p before I could enter. And guess what, the bloody machine doesn't take 5p's. If I had a penny more, I could have asked the man at the station stop to give me a 10p in full. BUT I DIDN'T.
It's not like I didn't have money on my card because I did. I just didn't want to have to use it for only a penny! I was fuming. But I had no choice. I had to get to a cash point to take out money. The nearest free cash point was like 4 mins from the station. I had to get back on a bus and get to a bank to take out the money. Trust me I was not happy about that but I had to do it because I was already 20 minutes behind schedule. I bit my tongue , closed my eyes and put money on that mother!
I was soo ANGRY!! OH MY.But anyway, I was late to work by an hour but my boss didn't seem to mind which was just incredible AND get this. I don't know if you know about the district line but they come like waterworks, Literally one after the other. without like 2 mins between them but today I waited a whole 6 minutes! Like what the hell is up with that?
But anyway, I put on some gospel music and my heart calmed down singing 'Worthy is the Lamb'. Praise Jesus!
MOT Girl x
Tuesday, 31 July 2012
Countdown ...
Hey guys, so let get to it.
Here's a bit of pointless information for you as to what my calendar looks like for the first week of August!
2 August :
12:30pm : Acting class with Miss Alarna Carr
2:30pm: Ted with Priya (day out)
8:30pm: Packing
4 August :
7:15am : Olympics (Athletics)
5 August
ALL DAY: Packing
Okay so maybe that's only like the first few days but today is the 31st and Hectic already so there's no need to include it because it's almost over.
So I have been doing a lot of reading these past few months. I LOVE TO READ! I don't mind what genre just as long as I can get into it and not be bored. This allows me to discover other authors because I'm not hell bound on specifics. So I just finished reading a novella called UnEnchanted By Chanda Hahn which was actually a good read. It was more of a train journey read. It had 27 chapters but was only like 256 pages long. I started reading it when I left my house and had finished reading by the time I got to work. It's very intriguing. I'm tempted to buy book 2 of it. I just might. Who knows! Right now I am looking for a Romance book that will allow me to forget all the wrong in my own love life. Most of my friends suggested Fifty Shades but I've already read all three so. I am still looking. As a writer myself I am trying to find inspiration for finish my latest project but with my busy schedule, I barely have time to breathe.
Soo, I am single completely and to be fair, I kinda like it. And no it'd not because I can go out and party and do whatever because I would do that anyway with or without a boyfriend. But it'd because I can just be myself. I can just be still and enjoy my own company. I can get stuck into my books and just be the weird girl that I am and act any how knowing fully well that my actions are not hurting anyone.
Oh yes and I am planning a Holidayyy ! Oh yeah. Although I am a little sad that I can't go with my friends and I have to go alone I don't mind because I get to spend some quality time with my cousins. I am totally excited and cannot wait. Only thing is I have to get time off work and try get it paid as well. I mean it only a week and I have done ALL work given to me just to make sure they couldn't say NO!. I am super excited.
I will be sure to keep you updated and give you a low down of what happened on my date with Priya and who knows, maybe I will feel generous and leak some of my work on here! Super excited for everything it would seem.
MOT Girl x
Here's a bit of pointless information for you as to what my calendar looks like for the first week of August!
2 August :
12:30pm : Acting class with Miss Alarna Carr
2:30pm: Ted with Priya (day out)
8:30pm: Packing
4 August :
7:15am : Olympics (Athletics)
5 August
ALL DAY: Packing
Okay so maybe that's only like the first few days but today is the 31st and Hectic already so there's no need to include it because it's almost over.
So I have been doing a lot of reading these past few months. I LOVE TO READ! I don't mind what genre just as long as I can get into it and not be bored. This allows me to discover other authors because I'm not hell bound on specifics. So I just finished reading a novella called UnEnchanted By Chanda Hahn which was actually a good read. It was more of a train journey read. It had 27 chapters but was only like 256 pages long. I started reading it when I left my house and had finished reading by the time I got to work. It's very intriguing. I'm tempted to buy book 2 of it. I just might. Who knows! Right now I am looking for a Romance book that will allow me to forget all the wrong in my own love life. Most of my friends suggested Fifty Shades but I've already read all three so. I am still looking. As a writer myself I am trying to find inspiration for finish my latest project but with my busy schedule, I barely have time to breathe.
Soo, I am single completely and to be fair, I kinda like it. And no it'd not because I can go out and party and do whatever because I would do that anyway with or without a boyfriend. But it'd because I can just be myself. I can just be still and enjoy my own company. I can get stuck into my books and just be the weird girl that I am and act any how knowing fully well that my actions are not hurting anyone.
Oh yes and I am planning a Holidayyy ! Oh yeah. Although I am a little sad that I can't go with my friends and I have to go alone I don't mind because I get to spend some quality time with my cousins. I am totally excited and cannot wait. Only thing is I have to get time off work and try get it paid as well. I mean it only a week and I have done ALL work given to me just to make sure they couldn't say NO!. I am super excited.
I will be sure to keep you updated and give you a low down of what happened on my date with Priya and who knows, maybe I will feel generous and leak some of my work on here! Super excited for everything it would seem.
MOT Girl x
Monday, 30 July 2012
ups and downs and kicky shafts.
Hello hello ,
Umm it's been a while.
So updates... my and my beau are officially over even though we went to the Olympics together and i stayed over his place. I think he might have got the wrong idea about the whole situation and in the end, before I left, we had an argument about the whole situation and things are as per... rocky with us. Thing is i want his friendship and nothing else. I don't need anything else. But i know i'd rather his friendship than nothing at all. He's special to me. I see me and him being friends for years and not getting bored of each other. Well he is very busy at the moment. He's going to be away for like 20 days from yesterday. It's not like I'm counting or anything. Totally LAME! But still. We will miss each other in terms of being in the same place. He's off to Wales the time that I am in Belgium and when I came back, he's off to camp. I guess we'll just see each other at my birthday dinner.
Which reminds me that I have to look for a nice restaurant to host my guest in. I am undecided about the culture I want to go with so we'll see.
GO TEAM GB!
So the Olympics are here and guess who's got tickets? well ... a bunch of us went to watch the women's basketball on Saturday. The teams playing were France v Brazil and Great Britain v Australia. Well it was a very intense game I must say but I had fun. It was good to see old faces and a few new ones. It was a great day. However, the prices for drinks and food were extortionate. My gosh! Lemme give you a low down, a bottle of coca cola was £2.40 + and water was £1.60. A bottle of beer was £4.30 and a glass of wine was £5+. It was ridiculous but i still bought those things. Regardless. I guess they are clever in that sense. People will buy no matter the price. If you're hungry, you're hungry.
Oh and in case you were wondering... France won and so did Australia. And I also have tickets to go see the Athletics this Saturday 4th. Super excited.
Oh yes and I am moving as well. Well just rooms but it's just as exciting. I am moving into a bigger room, so that means a bigger bed and all sorts. My friends and I have a lot of work to do but we are excited to put on our dungarees and our bandannas and get all dirty! we are soo excited! Although it will be very expensive on my part because I tend to buy everything myself since I am working so I can afford it. I'm talking about rugs and mirrors. Canvases, Wallpapers and the lot. I'm soo excited !!! EEEPPP!!
MOT Girl x
Umm it's been a while.
So updates... my and my beau are officially over even though we went to the Olympics together and i stayed over his place. I think he might have got the wrong idea about the whole situation and in the end, before I left, we had an argument about the whole situation and things are as per... rocky with us. Thing is i want his friendship and nothing else. I don't need anything else. But i know i'd rather his friendship than nothing at all. He's special to me. I see me and him being friends for years and not getting bored of each other. Well he is very busy at the moment. He's going to be away for like 20 days from yesterday. It's not like I'm counting or anything. Totally LAME! But still. We will miss each other in terms of being in the same place. He's off to Wales the time that I am in Belgium and when I came back, he's off to camp. I guess we'll just see each other at my birthday dinner.
Which reminds me that I have to look for a nice restaurant to host my guest in. I am undecided about the culture I want to go with so we'll see.
GO TEAM GB!
So the Olympics are here and guess who's got tickets? well ... a bunch of us went to watch the women's basketball on Saturday. The teams playing were France v Brazil and Great Britain v Australia. Well it was a very intense game I must say but I had fun. It was good to see old faces and a few new ones. It was a great day. However, the prices for drinks and food were extortionate. My gosh! Lemme give you a low down, a bottle of coca cola was £2.40 + and water was £1.60. A bottle of beer was £4.30 and a glass of wine was £5+. It was ridiculous but i still bought those things. Regardless. I guess they are clever in that sense. People will buy no matter the price. If you're hungry, you're hungry.
Oh and in case you were wondering... France won and so did Australia. And I also have tickets to go see the Athletics this Saturday 4th. Super excited.
Oh yes and I am moving as well. Well just rooms but it's just as exciting. I am moving into a bigger room, so that means a bigger bed and all sorts. My friends and I have a lot of work to do but we are excited to put on our dungarees and our bandannas and get all dirty! we are soo excited! Although it will be very expensive on my part because I tend to buy everything myself since I am working so I can afford it. I'm talking about rugs and mirrors. Canvases, Wallpapers and the lot. I'm soo excited !!! EEEPPP!!
MOT Girl x
Friday, 20 July 2012
This is It
Hey guys,
Sorry I haven't posted for a while but okay ummm.. things are just really paced pace at the moment and I take some time to just be still.
So it's crazy busy at work, Like non stop. BUT I like it. It keeps me busy and I do enjoy working. Umm, college is starting to freak me out because the results are coming out soon and I am dreading it. I just hope that its good news. Umm,
Romance Academy had a reunion on Wednesday and I must admit I was really excited to see the kids again. It was interesting because after being with them for so long, you build the trust but as soon as you leave them , their walls go straight back up which is what happened. But it was still a really good session and I enjoyed it.
Umm, I had a governors meeting on yesterday which was three hours long! My goodness. It was so hard not to fall asleep. Being the students' Unions president at my college I am automatically a governor and one of my responsibilities is to go to the meetings. The chair man made it a little more tolerable due to his jokes and wit but if not for him I would have slept no doubt. But at the end of the meeting , there was a unanimous vote upon staff excluding senior management getting a pay rise. I know a few teachers that will be well and truly happy with that!
So today is Friday and I am in my final hour of work, going to start getting ready to go home very soon. I thought I should quickly update you all.
MOT Girl x
Sorry I haven't posted for a while but okay ummm.. things are just really paced pace at the moment and I take some time to just be still.
So it's crazy busy at work, Like non stop. BUT I like it. It keeps me busy and I do enjoy working. Umm, college is starting to freak me out because the results are coming out soon and I am dreading it. I just hope that its good news. Umm,
Romance Academy had a reunion on Wednesday and I must admit I was really excited to see the kids again. It was interesting because after being with them for so long, you build the trust but as soon as you leave them , their walls go straight back up which is what happened. But it was still a really good session and I enjoyed it.
Umm, I had a governors meeting on yesterday which was three hours long! My goodness. It was so hard not to fall asleep. Being the students' Unions president at my college I am automatically a governor and one of my responsibilities is to go to the meetings. The chair man made it a little more tolerable due to his jokes and wit but if not for him I would have slept no doubt. But at the end of the meeting , there was a unanimous vote upon staff excluding senior management getting a pay rise. I know a few teachers that will be well and truly happy with that!
So today is Friday and I am in my final hour of work, going to start getting ready to go home very soon. I thought I should quickly update you all.
MOT Girl x
Wednesday, 11 July 2012
sorry!!!
Hi guys,
Sorry I have been MIA lately. Just needed time to focus on a few things including working on mine and my relationship status with my last conquest. And also I've been swamped at work.
So ummm, I have been reading the ever popular infectious book of the season ' Fifty Shades of Grey' in order to write a review on it for the website I write for. I must the book is rather addictive. I read it in four days. Although I am a fast reader, I tend to take my sweet time reading a book. I usually read a book within the time span of a week unless its a mills & boons book in which case I finish reading it within a day. However, something in this book kept me itching for me. I could hardly put it down. I read it at work, on the train , in the bath, EVERYWHERE! This book was like my drug for the past few days. But I've done my review which you can check out at www.swallowourwords.org.uk. I'm moving on to Fifty Shades Darker which is the second book in the trilogy and then finally I'll read 'FIFTY SHADES FREED'
So back to my life , ummm I took my niece out over the weekend. I took her to her fencing club where she looked adorable in her uniform. She is a pearl! I love her with all my heart and she's very cleaver, a little too cleaver for her age. I guess the apple doesn't fall too far from the tree. After that I took her to get some lunch and we caught up. Talking about school and how she's excited to have the holidays. After eating I took her to watch ICE AGE 4 which was a great deal of fun. I laughed & she laughed and it was just great.
So on Sunday me and my latest conquest had a sit down to discuss what was going on with us and bla bla. After leaving him, I had to do a really long over due self analysis. It occurred to me that I do not allow myself to love. It's very bizarre but I just can't help it. It's like my heart is closed up. The thought of being in love disgusts me. I don't know. It's very strange.
who knows , maybe if this conquest sticks around, he may be the first guy I could ever love. Who knows.
MOT Girl x
Sorry I have been MIA lately. Just needed time to focus on a few things including working on mine and my relationship status with my last conquest. And also I've been swamped at work.
So ummm, I have been reading the ever popular infectious book of the season ' Fifty Shades of Grey' in order to write a review on it for the website I write for. I must the book is rather addictive. I read it in four days. Although I am a fast reader, I tend to take my sweet time reading a book. I usually read a book within the time span of a week unless its a mills & boons book in which case I finish reading it within a day. However, something in this book kept me itching for me. I could hardly put it down. I read it at work, on the train , in the bath, EVERYWHERE! This book was like my drug for the past few days. But I've done my review which you can check out at www.swallowourwords.org.uk. I'm moving on to Fifty Shades Darker which is the second book in the trilogy and then finally I'll read 'FIFTY SHADES FREED'
So back to my life , ummm I took my niece out over the weekend. I took her to her fencing club where she looked adorable in her uniform. She is a pearl! I love her with all my heart and she's very cleaver, a little too cleaver for her age. I guess the apple doesn't fall too far from the tree. After that I took her to get some lunch and we caught up. Talking about school and how she's excited to have the holidays. After eating I took her to watch ICE AGE 4 which was a great deal of fun. I laughed & she laughed and it was just great.
So on Sunday me and my latest conquest had a sit down to discuss what was going on with us and bla bla. After leaving him, I had to do a really long over due self analysis. It occurred to me that I do not allow myself to love. It's very bizarre but I just can't help it. It's like my heart is closed up. The thought of being in love disgusts me. I don't know. It's very strange.
who knows , maybe if this conquest sticks around, he may be the first guy I could ever love. Who knows.
MOT Girl x
Wednesday, 4 July 2012
ummm.. No
Hey guys, It the middle of the week AGAIN!! 2 more days till the weekend and I have no work tomorrow because of ANOTHER bus strike. This is great news because I can chill with friends near my area or alone. I feel like I need to be surrounded by people that don't want me in bed. Just good friends that want a good laugh.
So, how do I feel now that I'm completely single with no strings attached? Honestly, affected. Like out of all my ex boyfriends and people that I have been involved with , this one hurts the most because no one has ever treated me that way, espesh if we had something going on. What's more bizarre is the fact that , like he is a gentleman and he promised he wouldn't hurt me and I believed him. I guess we all have our moments when you get sucked in by others.
Enough about boys! I'm working and I'm enjoying life. I love hanging out with friends because now I have time for them. It's my friends birthday outing Friday, she wants to go clubbing so I'm going to go to support her on her special day.
I won't be all depressed and morbid on here because it really is not my style but that does not mean that I am not hurt or I didn't care about him. I just have a high threshold for emotional pain -.-. Believe it!
MOT Girl x
So, how do I feel now that I'm completely single with no strings attached? Honestly, affected. Like out of all my ex boyfriends and people that I have been involved with , this one hurts the most because no one has ever treated me that way, espesh if we had something going on. What's more bizarre is the fact that , like he is a gentleman and he promised he wouldn't hurt me and I believed him. I guess we all have our moments when you get sucked in by others.
Enough about boys! I'm working and I'm enjoying life. I love hanging out with friends because now I have time for them. It's my friends birthday outing Friday, she wants to go clubbing so I'm going to go to support her on her special day.
I won't be all depressed and morbid on here because it really is not my style but that does not mean that I am not hurt or I didn't care about him. I just have a high threshold for emotional pain -.-. Believe it!
MOT Girl x
Tuesday, 3 July 2012
FSSM!
Hey readers, Sorry for not sticking to my word. I know I said I would post on Monday but I just couldn't bring myself to it.
So let me just updat you on what went down. I didn't got to either things that were planned. Lots of last minute cancellation and I just thought eff it. I went to see my beau instead and just chilled. We had a great time watching stupid movies. We kissed and talked and whatever and then later he took me out to get something to eat and we had a great time just relaxing and talking and laughing. So that was Friday night. I was really upset about what he did before but the boy is adroable and I just can't get enough of him.
Saturday
So saturday I took my sister out because she has been upset for a while. She recently got out of a long term relationship and it affected her pretty badly. I just wanted to do something nice for her to cheer her up. My beau and I met my sister and sat down in a restaurant and had a really nice Brunch and a nice long chat about what is going on with her and how she is feeling and all that. She also got the chance to meet my beau and she liked him which was a relief because I didn't want any tention at all. And glad there wasn't any. So after we left my sister , we went to meet a friend of ours and we went to sit and talk. It was a really good day. After chilling out for a little while , all three of us went back to our friends and slept there for the night. I had a lot of fun. I love spening time with my beau, we get on so well and he's just great.
Sunday
Sunday was really chilled, we just all went home and had a good day of rest.
MONDAY!!
Monday was just an epic day!
1. I got into an argument with my mother
2. I pissed off a friend & myslef
3. I broke things off with my beau!
1. I woke up sorta happy with myself and the world. Things were great , you know. I have great friends , a great family and I have my health. What more do I want? Well, I got into an argument with the queen of the house over something I know nothing about. Long story short , she left the house to go work and I was stuck in the hosue . . . which leads into
2. She left me with nothing, I had a thing that mroning and let's just say I couldn't go to it and I was supposed to go with me friend. So in the end we both didn't go which pissed me off for the fact that I had disappointed my friend. Worst feeling ever! But We're okay now. We still skillets!
3. So things between me and my beau had been rocky from the very beginning and yesterday I just decided I have had enough. I didn't want to be treated like some bloody hand me downs and I didn't want to hate him for treating me that way. I wanted to remember for the good times we had together. Not the shit things that he scarred me with emotionally. In a way I'm glad because now I'm outside that box of infactuation and I can see him for what he really is. Like I thought he was a striaght up guy but he just ended up to be like every other guy. But you know what , I'm a strong girl, it's not like i was in love with him. I do like him as a friend and I hope we can continue to be friends but if I'm hoenst, that's all it looks like for me and him as of right now!
So readers , there you are. You are now updated.
MOT Girl x
So let me just updat you on what went down. I didn't got to either things that were planned. Lots of last minute cancellation and I just thought eff it. I went to see my beau instead and just chilled. We had a great time watching stupid movies. We kissed and talked and whatever and then later he took me out to get something to eat and we had a great time just relaxing and talking and laughing. So that was Friday night. I was really upset about what he did before but the boy is adroable and I just can't get enough of him.
Saturday
So saturday I took my sister out because she has been upset for a while. She recently got out of a long term relationship and it affected her pretty badly. I just wanted to do something nice for her to cheer her up. My beau and I met my sister and sat down in a restaurant and had a really nice Brunch and a nice long chat about what is going on with her and how she is feeling and all that. She also got the chance to meet my beau and she liked him which was a relief because I didn't want any tention at all. And glad there wasn't any. So after we left my sister , we went to meet a friend of ours and we went to sit and talk. It was a really good day. After chilling out for a little while , all three of us went back to our friends and slept there for the night. I had a lot of fun. I love spening time with my beau, we get on so well and he's just great.
Sunday
Sunday was really chilled, we just all went home and had a good day of rest.
MONDAY!!
Monday was just an epic day!
1. I got into an argument with my mother
2. I pissed off a friend & myslef
3. I broke things off with my beau!
1. I woke up sorta happy with myself and the world. Things were great , you know. I have great friends , a great family and I have my health. What more do I want? Well, I got into an argument with the queen of the house over something I know nothing about. Long story short , she left the house to go work and I was stuck in the hosue . . . which leads into
2. She left me with nothing, I had a thing that mroning and let's just say I couldn't go to it and I was supposed to go with me friend. So in the end we both didn't go which pissed me off for the fact that I had disappointed my friend. Worst feeling ever! But We're okay now. We still skillets!
3. So things between me and my beau had been rocky from the very beginning and yesterday I just decided I have had enough. I didn't want to be treated like some bloody hand me downs and I didn't want to hate him for treating me that way. I wanted to remember for the good times we had together. Not the shit things that he scarred me with emotionally. In a way I'm glad because now I'm outside that box of infactuation and I can see him for what he really is. Like I thought he was a striaght up guy but he just ended up to be like every other guy. But you know what , I'm a strong girl, it's not like i was in love with him. I do like him as a friend and I hope we can continue to be friends but if I'm hoenst, that's all it looks like for me and him as of right now!
So readers , there you are. You are now updated.
MOT Girl x
Friday, 29 June 2012
WOW (NOT the good kind)
Guys, I think I've had enough! Before I get into it. It's FRIDAAYYY. Literally #TGIF.
So here it is. How can my man ignore me by not saying hello to me and walk straight to his ex girlfriend and find out if she's alright before he comes to me when we were meeting up to go cinema! Like how disrespectful. I just couldn't believe him. I've never felt so embarrassed in my life. I was hurt but I just don't show my feelings. It's completely obvious that she STILL comes first. I don't know guys. What do I do? Like I would never ever think about doing something like that to him but obviously I'm not that important to him. His world revolves around his ex girlfriend. I actually thought I could handle it but why should I literally settle for less.
I really like him but if this is how its going to be almost all the time then I don't want to be that girl. I felt like such a fool yesterday and I still do. It just sucks that he did that to me. I still cant get over it. Like I am just dumbfounded. Like completely. I am not a cryer and I don't believe no man is worth wasting your precious tears on. I tried to show emotion but instead I just laughed. Literally laughed out loud and shook my head because I just could not believe it. Maybe I'm being selfish but it was such a shit feeling that I'm still not over it.
WOW! That's just rude.
Anyway , You'll know I write for www.swallowourwords.org.uk. So today we are doing a little meet and greet. Be a great opportunity to see everyone and talk more about the website. And straight after that it's my friends birthday, we off to the Water Margin to celebrate her day! Update on those two things Monday.
Have a good weekend readers! Hope you have a blast.
So here it is. How can my man ignore me by not saying hello to me and walk straight to his ex girlfriend and find out if she's alright before he comes to me when we were meeting up to go cinema! Like how disrespectful. I just couldn't believe him. I've never felt so embarrassed in my life. I was hurt but I just don't show my feelings. It's completely obvious that she STILL comes first. I don't know guys. What do I do? Like I would never ever think about doing something like that to him but obviously I'm not that important to him. His world revolves around his ex girlfriend. I actually thought I could handle it but why should I literally settle for less.
I really like him but if this is how its going to be almost all the time then I don't want to be that girl. I felt like such a fool yesterday and I still do. It just sucks that he did that to me. I still cant get over it. Like I am just dumbfounded. Like completely. I am not a cryer and I don't believe no man is worth wasting your precious tears on. I tried to show emotion but instead I just laughed. Literally laughed out loud and shook my head because I just could not believe it. Maybe I'm being selfish but it was such a shit feeling that I'm still not over it.
WOW! That's just rude.
Anyway , You'll know I write for www.swallowourwords.org.uk. So today we are doing a little meet and greet. Be a great opportunity to see everyone and talk more about the website. And straight after that it's my friends birthday, we off to the Water Margin to celebrate her day! Update on those two things Monday.
Have a good weekend readers! Hope you have a blast.
Thursday, 28 June 2012
PAPA TURNS 53!!!!
Afternoon, Iri's & Ri's. How are you all?
Okay so today is the day! My daddy turns 53 (which is kinda young when i think about it) and I am so proud of the man he is today. He has come a long way to become the MAN he is today and I am very grateful! This man is funny and a joy to be around. He's caring and lovely and amazing and giving and just a great man! I owe him my life. I would not be where I am today if it was not for his constant support and encouragement, teaching me follow my dreams and never give up. The reason it means so much to me is because I have in all my life wanted to be one thing. That occupation seems so far away from my reach but my dad was behind me 100%. Giving me advice , paying for this and that. Coming to shows and all. The I changed my mind again and I was all over the place with my goals and dreams and ambition. I basically was lost in this world. I literally did not know what to do but no matter what I chose, he was behind me with support and words of wisdom and I just want to thank him
Gosh , I am gushing! He is a ball of fun and power and grace and everything a man should be. He is not perfect but he is to me and to God. God created him in his own image so I love him just the way he is. I pray God gives him more years to his life to see my babies and be at their recitals and all that.
I do have the best dad in the world. To me he is everything and I love him with all my heart!
Happy Birthday Papa
P.S Updates will be in my next post. Today is all about one man and one man only. PAPA!
MOT Girl x
Okay so today is the day! My daddy turns 53 (which is kinda young when i think about it) and I am so proud of the man he is today. He has come a long way to become the MAN he is today and I am very grateful! This man is funny and a joy to be around. He's caring and lovely and amazing and giving and just a great man! I owe him my life. I would not be where I am today if it was not for his constant support and encouragement, teaching me follow my dreams and never give up. The reason it means so much to me is because I have in all my life wanted to be one thing. That occupation seems so far away from my reach but my dad was behind me 100%. Giving me advice , paying for this and that. Coming to shows and all. The I changed my mind again and I was all over the place with my goals and dreams and ambition. I basically was lost in this world. I literally did not know what to do but no matter what I chose, he was behind me with support and words of wisdom and I just want to thank him
Gosh , I am gushing! He is a ball of fun and power and grace and everything a man should be. He is not perfect but he is to me and to God. God created him in his own image so I love him just the way he is. I pray God gives him more years to his life to see my babies and be at their recitals and all that.
I do have the best dad in the world. To me he is everything and I love him with all my heart!
Happy Birthday Papa
P.S Updates will be in my next post. Today is all about one man and one man only. PAPA!
MOT Girl x
Wednesday, 27 June 2012
hmm,
Bloody hell guys, like I hardly fit a post in a day and now I'm posting twice in one day. It will surely rain!
I need to vent about myself. I feel really unimportant to someone right now and I'm just like over it. Like you know when you think about someone and doing nice things for them like visiting them and just being nice to them . . . and like in the back of your mind you're thinking will they do the same for you? That's how I feel right now which is alien to me. Everything I do which I have control with, I do because I want to. Like I don't do things to get the recognition at all.
I dunno , I'm just discombobulated right now.
On a lighter note, it's PAPA's birthday tomorrow. Went into town today (instead of being at work) and got him some things for tomorrow. I'm super excited and blessed to be able to share his birthday with him. I'll gush about how much I adore Papa in tomorrows post.
Still slightly upset tho.
MOT Girl x
I need to vent about myself. I feel really unimportant to someone right now and I'm just like over it. Like you know when you think about someone and doing nice things for them like visiting them and just being nice to them . . . and like in the back of your mind you're thinking will they do the same for you? That's how I feel right now which is alien to me. Everything I do which I have control with, I do because I want to. Like I don't do things to get the recognition at all.
I dunno , I'm just discombobulated right now.
On a lighter note, it's PAPA's birthday tomorrow. Went into town today (instead of being at work) and got him some things for tomorrow. I'm super excited and blessed to be able to share his birthday with him. I'll gush about how much I adore Papa in tomorrows post.
Still slightly upset tho.
MOT Girl x
Trouble in Paradise
Hey guys, It's Wednesday!! It's the middle of the week. Pay day in two days and a right messy piss up! who's excited? I am!!
So guys, I have been have been slightly unhappy with whats going on with me and my beau. Like things are rocky a little bit. Maybe it's just how I see it but, what it is is that we have a great time when we are together. But as soon as we leave each other like something happens like I hurt myself and he wants me to check it and i refuse to and it angers him and we fight. I put my hands up , I'm not the most forward person ever. Like you if you ask me a question and I am not comfortable with it or it angers me . . . I will answer back WITH another question. And if I tell you that I will tell you later, it means exactly that. No matter what you do or say, you won't get it out of me!
But I mean , I miss him. I haven't seen him for like 3 days because I have been at work and I finish late. He is busy doing what he does. You know, just doing him and being the business man that he is. We don't trust each other mainly because I have trust issues and so does he but we both trust our feelings for each other and we thrive on that. Which works for us, like we are content with our situation but I just wish I wouldn't second guess him all the time. Sometimes when he tells me it's me he wants to be with, like I think about it and sometimes I don't believe it. It's like no matter what, even if I am super angry with him when I am away from him , when I see him its like I forget why I was mad at him in the first place.
I planned to just be angry with him in this post but I have no reason to be. I just miss him and I wish I spent everyday with him. I don't believe in 'Love' so it's a bit tricky because he does , and he believes that one day I will find it. I slightly think that maybe he thinks that I won't love him and will love someone else but that's not something he should worry about. I mean I like him a lot. That should be enough for him no? Like I have no other way of showing him how much I care about him and how much I want to make him happy.
I'm happy to tell the whole world that in a sense , my beau got me whipped.
MOT Girl x
So guys, I have been have been slightly unhappy with whats going on with me and my beau. Like things are rocky a little bit. Maybe it's just how I see it but, what it is is that we have a great time when we are together. But as soon as we leave each other like something happens like I hurt myself and he wants me to check it and i refuse to and it angers him and we fight. I put my hands up , I'm not the most forward person ever. Like you if you ask me a question and I am not comfortable with it or it angers me . . . I will answer back WITH another question. And if I tell you that I will tell you later, it means exactly that. No matter what you do or say, you won't get it out of me!
But I mean , I miss him. I haven't seen him for like 3 days because I have been at work and I finish late. He is busy doing what he does. You know, just doing him and being the business man that he is. We don't trust each other mainly because I have trust issues and so does he but we both trust our feelings for each other and we thrive on that. Which works for us, like we are content with our situation but I just wish I wouldn't second guess him all the time. Sometimes when he tells me it's me he wants to be with, like I think about it and sometimes I don't believe it. It's like no matter what, even if I am super angry with him when I am away from him , when I see him its like I forget why I was mad at him in the first place.
I planned to just be angry with him in this post but I have no reason to be. I just miss him and I wish I spent everyday with him. I don't believe in 'Love' so it's a bit tricky because he does , and he believes that one day I will find it. I slightly think that maybe he thinks that I won't love him and will love someone else but that's not something he should worry about. I mean I like him a lot. That should be enough for him no? Like I have no other way of showing him how much I care about him and how much I want to make him happy.
I'm happy to tell the whole world that in a sense , my beau got me whipped.
MOT Girl x
Tuesday, 26 June 2012
House'Partyy
Hey guys , So remember in one of my posts I said there was going to be a get together at my house? well yes , this post is about it. I had a good time. The morning of the part was really slow but relaxing, i dyed my hair (well my friend did) and we just sat and talked for like hours on end. Then around 1pm it became hellish because everyone was running up and down trying to get everything sorted and all.
I was in the kitchen like cooking and trying to prepare the salad and what not.
The day it self was epic, Me and my other sister and my friend just had our own little party of our own. We just grabbed some beer, some food and went and chilled infront of my shed. We had a great time in our lil 3 girl party.
Pictures.
I was in the kitchen like cooking and trying to prepare the salad and what not.
The day it self was epic, Me and my other sister and my friend just had our own little party of our own. We just grabbed some beer, some food and went and chilled infront of my shed. We had a great time in our lil 3 girl party.
Pictures.
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Monday, 25 June 2012
wtf!
Like I feel defeated in some way because its like I have no control over anything and everything is falling apart. And guess what shit I found out today like an hour ago.
Lemme start from the beginning. I bank with Lloyds TSB, I have done so for a few years now and suddenly my account is under attack. I got my paycheck , obvo, Friday is pay day and i put it into my account. I try to buy some shoes and my card gets declined! I don't worry about it too much because I am thinking , like maybe the check has not cleared yet but uh uh bitches. Apparently , someone has used my card to buy an expensive item and the banks don't know who or what the person is buying.
This is sad!! I'm so sad I had to do a post at work.
MOT Girl x
Friday, 22 June 2012
Bus strike me down!
Oh my readers! What the hell! What is wrong with bus drivers! Okay so London just had a brain fart today and decided to take a bus strike! Like are you crazy! People use those things you know. So I've just come home from work where I have had to walk everywhere(just saying) and I forgot to get extra money to get a cab home because obviously I usuly take the bus , like duh, I'm not fucking Kate Middleton where my chariot awaits.
I'm not even trying to loose weight but it seems like I have been doing a lot of walking and eating healthy! I like my big ass! I am so tired like there is no words! My feet are tired and sweaty and I just need a HOT bath! Like right now! I just wanted you all to k ow.
Hmm tired and there is like trouble in paradise as well so double whammy !
Ffs! Enjoy your evening guys, those who can that is. I'm Gonna put my feet in some ice.
MOT girl x
Thursday, 21 June 2012
Great expectations
What a loser I have been today! So the guy that I have been seeing texted me this morning saying 'morning beautiful' how cute right. Then he's like I want to ask you something, so I'm thinking we are going to make it official. I get so excited , get all ready and all that and go to his house. We have a great time just being in each others company , laughing , kissing. So I ask him what he wanted to say and guess what? He wasn't making it official. I bit my tongue and still managed to have a great time with him.
So why am I feeling like this? There was a hiccup effort regarding myself and someone else so I wanted to reassure him that he could trust me and the reply I got back was not pleasant. I meant to others it may not be as hurtful but to me , because I care about him I would say that yes I am hurt.
I don't know what to say or do because I don't want to argue or anything like that. Hmmm , what to do?
MOT girl x
Wednesday, 20 June 2012
6 mil , 3 months
Guys I heard this and I had to share. So many of you may know that I do Law in college. Well my law class and I went on a field trip to two courts, The Royal Courts of Justice and The Old Baileys.
Guess how much a layer at the Royal Court of Justice gets paid for an hour for a high profile case . . . £2,000!!! I was like WHAT??? That is Irrrr! I turned to my law teacher and told him 'Name .... you are in the wrong profession'. Then he was like 'Don't you think I like interacting with my students?' I was like 'No! You hate us'. We all laughed it off because it was funny but slightly true. But it is crazy, one layer our guide spoke about was going to bag 3 million pounds after defending some high profile guy for three months.
I needs me to hurry up and get me a Law Degree and a Masters and find me a job in London. Shiiitittt!
MOT girl x
Guess how much a layer at the Royal Court of Justice gets paid for an hour for a high profile case . . . £2,000!!! I was like WHAT??? That is Irrrr! I turned to my law teacher and told him 'Name .... you are in the wrong profession'. Then he was like 'Don't you think I like interacting with my students?' I was like 'No! You hate us'. We all laughed it off because it was funny but slightly true. But it is crazy, one layer our guide spoke about was going to bag 3 million pounds after defending some high profile guy for three months.
I needs me to hurry up and get me a Law Degree and a Masters and find me a job in London. Shiiitittt!
MOT girl x
Monday, 18 June 2012
Some women asked for my card!
Let me just start it from here. I did a talk on sexual health on behalf of my mother. Because I am a teenager, it's easy for the other teens to relate obviously being one of my peers. So I did the talk the best I could with statistics and you facts so that I knew I was not talking shit when I started dropping figures and all of that. The speech to me was not that long at all. It was about 5 mins long and the topic was close to home. My mum has like literally drawn it into my brain that I get it completely and I do my own research.
- so after my speech I was just talking on the phone to my friend and these ladies come up to me and ask if I had a card (like I was some kind of public speaker and that maybe that was my job). I looked at them and told them my age so that they would get the idea that this isn't my day to day work. They were even more excited about the fact that I was so young and they insisted I give them my number.
Long story short , I gave it to them and they stayed talking to me about what I said during the speech. I just thought I had to share this because it's liberating. Anyway, enjoy the rest of your day.
MOT girl x
- so after my speech I was just talking on the phone to my friend and these ladies come up to me and ask if I had a card (like I was some kind of public speaker and that maybe that was my job). I looked at them and told them my age so that they would get the idea that this isn't my day to day work. They were even more excited about the fact that I was so young and they insisted I give them my number.
Long story short , I gave it to them and they stayed talking to me about what I said during the speech. I just thought I had to share this because it's liberating. Anyway, enjoy the rest of your day.
MOT girl x
Friday, 15 June 2012
What NOT to do at work!
I don't know about you guys but because of the holidays my sleeping patterns are messed up!
I would go to sleep at about 3 in the morning and wake up at like 5! What sort of logic is that? I think because my body is so a costumed to wake up in a blind panic to ensure that I'm not late for college that even when I DON'T want to wake up I do.
Maybe it's just silliness but like when when I was going to college , I would beg my body to wake up early. And it's not like I don't go to bed early , I would go to bed around 10pm to wake up by 7am so I have enough sleep but NOOOOO! I don't wake up till about like 8:30 when I got a class for like 9! What kinda messe up sh*t is that?
And get this , I have been falling asleep at work. I get that my job may be a little you slow due to the fact that I sit behind a desk an answer phones and bla bla bla. But it is no excuse to fall asleep. I have no idea what is going on with my body. I just had to put it out there because I had talks with my boss yesterday and we were reviewing my behaviour. Thank God I didn't get fired or anything. I just don't know what is going on. Like i'm confused!
- // sidebar, so we're having a little get together at my house tomorrow. Be sure to check out the events of that day. I may be too busy to tweet but I will try, and I will be blogging about it too.
@irenejehu < follow :)
MOT girl x
I would go to sleep at about 3 in the morning and wake up at like 5! What sort of logic is that? I think because my body is so a costumed to wake up in a blind panic to ensure that I'm not late for college that even when I DON'T want to wake up I do.
Maybe it's just silliness but like when when I was going to college , I would beg my body to wake up early. And it's not like I don't go to bed early , I would go to bed around 10pm to wake up by 7am so I have enough sleep but NOOOOO! I don't wake up till about like 8:30 when I got a class for like 9! What kinda messe up sh*t is that?
And get this , I have been falling asleep at work. I get that my job may be a little you slow due to the fact that I sit behind a desk an answer phones and bla bla bla. But it is no excuse to fall asleep. I have no idea what is going on with my body. I just had to put it out there because I had talks with my boss yesterday and we were reviewing my behaviour. Thank God I didn't get fired or anything. I just don't know what is going on. Like i'm confused!
- // sidebar, so we're having a little get together at my house tomorrow. Be sure to check out the events of that day. I may be too busy to tweet but I will try, and I will be blogging about it too.
@irenejehu < follow :)
MOT girl x
Thursday, 14 June 2012
Updates
Hey guys,
I know I haven't posted in a while. Want to say sorry about that. This post is to just update you on what's been going on in my life. It's non stop. Okay so , I just recently finished all my exams so I am a free bird. Currently working in a Law firm to earn some money.
1. I got involved voluntarily with Romance Academy as a Leader. That meant teaching teenagers about sex and relationship. It wasn't patronising at all. All the kids felt safe and they enjoyed it a lot. They did not want it to be over. It was a 14 week course where the young teens would come to a certain venue on a certain day (we chose Wednesdays)for about 3 hours and we just explored. Every week had a different topic that we looked it. The graduation was on the 23rd May. It was fab. I've put some pictures up on my facebook. I think one or two on twitter. Check them out if you can.
2. As you may or may not know, I write reviews for the website www.swallowourwords.org.uk. Check it out if you can. Its sassy and stylish and cool. ummm, Yeah. I took a break from it due to exams but I am slowly getting back in there. Just need to up my game. Its really hard because I have got a lot going but I will always try make time for them.
3. OMG! My mum totally surprised me. I got chosen to be 'Role Model of the Month' which was extremely sweet. I did not expect it at all. With my mum's help 'The SOS Show' (an independat org) surprised me with a camera crew and flowers and gift for the work I did or do for charity l. I was so touched and surprised. I felt very honoured to be chosen because obviously I am most definitely NOT the only young person that does things for charity so I felt blessed. They asked me queations about what I do and why I do it. It was most defo a great experience. Pictures of that are on Facebook as well.
I cut my hair as well. I'm really lookin forward to summer to see what God has in stall for me and all that. Unmm , yeah my mind is still on over drive. Thinking about changing the name of this blog though. To a more simple one like my name?
Follow me on twitter @irenejehu and most definitely watch this space!
I know I haven't posted in a while. Want to say sorry about that. This post is to just update you on what's been going on in my life. It's non stop. Okay so , I just recently finished all my exams so I am a free bird. Currently working in a Law firm to earn some money.
Me & two of the boys from the group
1. I got involved voluntarily with Romance Academy as a Leader. That meant teaching teenagers about sex and relationship. It wasn't patronising at all. All the kids felt safe and they enjoyed it a lot. They did not want it to be over. It was a 14 week course where the young teens would come to a certain venue on a certain day (we chose Wednesdays)for about 3 hours and we just explored. Every week had a different topic that we looked it. The graduation was on the 23rd May. It was fab. I've put some pictures up on my facebook. I think one or two on twitter. Check them out if you can.
2. As you may or may not know, I write reviews for the website www.swallowourwords.org.uk. Check it out if you can. Its sassy and stylish and cool. ummm, Yeah. I took a break from it due to exams but I am slowly getting back in there. Just need to up my game. Its really hard because I have got a lot going but I will always try make time for them.
3. OMG! My mum totally surprised me. I got chosen to be 'Role Model of the Month' which was extremely sweet. I did not expect it at all. With my mum's help 'The SOS Show' (an independat org) surprised me with a camera crew and flowers and gift for the work I did or do for charity l. I was so touched and surprised. I felt very honoured to be chosen because obviously I am most definitely NOT the only young person that does things for charity so I felt blessed. They asked me queations about what I do and why I do it. It was most defo a great experience. Pictures of that are on Facebook as well.
Follow me on twitter @irenejehu and most definitely watch this space!
Sunday, 1 January 2012
Happy New Year
Happy New Year my online friends,
My new years resolution is to make my dreams come true and to be a better me. To be nicer, smater, more patient. To better myelf and enrich myself in God's blessing. To let go of things and not hold grudges. To learn to forgive at first instance because God forgave my sins of 2011. 2012 is going to be magical. Your life is definitely what you want it to be. When you are positive, you see things in a very different light. Everything is peaceful and full of joy and you enjoy life better because you don't have to look over your shoulder or wait anxiously to see who is plotting against you. Leave that battle to God and live the life he has given you. Life is too short to be second guessing. Live for the moment and think about it tomorrow. No regrets. Enjoy every second of your life no matter your situation. Remember to be thankful for what you have and not complain about what you don't have. If you are fortunate enough to have your parents, be thankful for them. Cherish every moment. God helps those who help themselves. God will never put you in a situation that you cannt handle. Trust in him and don't ever question your faith. Believe in him, he will never let you down.
Happy New Year
Irene
My new years resolution is to make my dreams come true and to be a better me. To be nicer, smater, more patient. To better myelf and enrich myself in God's blessing. To let go of things and not hold grudges. To learn to forgive at first instance because God forgave my sins of 2011. 2012 is going to be magical. Your life is definitely what you want it to be. When you are positive, you see things in a very different light. Everything is peaceful and full of joy and you enjoy life better because you don't have to look over your shoulder or wait anxiously to see who is plotting against you. Leave that battle to God and live the life he has given you. Life is too short to be second guessing. Live for the moment and think about it tomorrow. No regrets. Enjoy every second of your life no matter your situation. Remember to be thankful for what you have and not complain about what you don't have. If you are fortunate enough to have your parents, be thankful for them. Cherish every moment. God helps those who help themselves. God will never put you in a situation that you cannt handle. Trust in him and don't ever question your faith. Believe in him, he will never let you down.
Happy New Year
Irene
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