WOW (NOT the good kind)

Guys, I think I've had enough! Before I get into it. It's FRIDAAYYY. Literally #TGIF.

So here it is. How can my man  ignore me by not saying hello to me and walk straight to his ex girlfriend and find out if she's alright before he comes to me when we were meeting up to go cinema! Like how disrespectful. I just couldn't believe him. I've never felt so embarrassed in my life. I was hurt but I just don't show my feelings. It's completely obvious that she STILL comes first. I don't know guys. What do I do? Like I would never ever think about doing something like that to him but obviously I'm not that important to him. His world revolves around his ex girlfriend. I actually thought I could handle it but why should I literally settle for less.
I really like him but if this is how its going to be almost all the time then I don't want to be that girl. I felt like such a fool yesterday and I still do. It just sucks that he did that to me. I still cant get over it. Like I am just dumbfounded. Like completely. I am not a cryer and I don't believe no man is worth wasting your precious tears on. I tried to show emotion but instead I just laughed. Literally laughed out loud and shook my head because I just could not believe it. Maybe I'm being selfish but it was such a shit feeling that I'm still not over it.
WOW! That's just rude.

Anyway , You'll know I write for www.swallowourwords.org.uk. So today we are doing a little meet and greet. Be a great opportunity to see everyone and talk more about the website. And straight after that it's my friends birthday, we off to the Water Margin to celebrate her day! Update on those two things Monday.

Have a good weekend readers! Hope you have a blast.

PAPA TURNS 53!!!!

Afternoon, Iri's & Ri's. How are you all?

Okay so today is the day! My daddy turns 53 (which is kinda young when i think about it) and I am so proud of the man he is today. He has come a long way to become the MAN he is today and I am very grateful! This man is funny and a joy to be around. He's caring and lovely and amazing and giving and just a great man! I owe him my life. I would not be where I am today if it was not for his constant support and encouragement, teaching me follow my dreams and never give up. The reason it means so much to me is because I have in all my life wanted to be one thing. That occupation seems so far away from my reach but my dad was behind me 100%. Giving me advice , paying for this and that. Coming to shows and all. The I changed my mind again and I was all over the place with my goals and dreams and ambition. I basically was lost in this world. I literally did not know what to do but no matter what I chose, he was behind me with support and words of wisdom and I just want to thank him

Gosh , I am gushing! He is a ball of fun and power and grace and everything a man should be. He is not perfect but he is to me and to God. God created him in his own image so I love him just the way he is. I pray God gives him more years to his life to see my babies and be at their recitals and all that.
I do have the best dad in the world. To me he is everything and I love him with all my heart!

Happy Birthday Papa

P.S Updates will be in my next post. Today is all about one man and one man only. PAPA!

MOT Girl x

hmm,

Bloody hell guys, like I hardly fit a post in a day and now I'm posting twice in one day. It will surely rain!

I need to vent about myself. I feel really unimportant to someone right now and I'm just like over it. Like you know when you think about someone and doing nice things for them like visiting them and just being nice to them . . . and like in the back of your mind you're thinking will they do the same for you? That's how I feel right now which is alien to me. Everything I do which I have control with, I do because I want to. Like I don't do things to get the recognition at all.

I dunno , I'm just discombobulated right now.

On a lighter note, it's PAPA's birthday tomorrow. Went into town today (instead of being at work) and got him some things for tomorrow. I'm super excited and blessed to be able to share his birthday with him. I'll gush about how much I adore Papa in tomorrows post.
 Still slightly upset tho.

MOT Girl x

Trouble in Paradise

Hey guys, It's Wednesday!! It's the middle of the week. Pay day in two days and a right messy piss up! who's excited? I am!!

So guys, I have been have been slightly unhappy with whats going on with me and my beau. Like things are rocky a little bit. Maybe it's just how I see it but, what it is is that we have a great time when we are together. But as soon as we leave each other like something happens like I hurt myself and he wants me to check it and i refuse to and it angers him and we fight. I put my hands up , I'm not the most forward person ever. Like you if you ask me a question and I am not comfortable with it or it angers me . . . I will answer back WITH another question. And if I tell you that I will tell you later, it means exactly that. No matter what you do or say, you won't get it out of me!

But I mean , I miss him. I haven't seen him for like 3 days because I have been at work and I finish late. He is busy doing what he does. You know, just doing him and being the business man that he is. We don't trust each other mainly because I have trust issues and so does he but we both trust our feelings for each other and we thrive on that. Which works for us, like we are content with our situation but I just wish I wouldn't second guess him all the time. Sometimes when he tells me it's me he wants to be with, like I think about it and sometimes I don't believe it. It's like no matter what, even if I am super angry with him when I am away from him , when I see him its like I forget why I was mad at him in the first place.

I planned to just be angry with him in this post but I have no reason to be. I just miss him and I wish I spent everyday with him. I don't believe in 'Love' so it's a bit tricky because he does , and he believes that one day I will find it. I slightly think that maybe he thinks that I won't love him and will love someone else but that's not something he should worry about. I mean I like him a lot. That should be enough for him no? Like I have no other way of showing him how much I care about him and how much I want to make him happy.

I'm happy to tell the whole world that in a sense , my beau got me whipped.

MOT Girl x

House'Partyy

Hey guys , So remember in one of my posts I said there was going to be a get together at my house? well yes , this post is about it. I had a good time. The morning of the part was really slow but relaxing, i dyed my hair (well my friend did) and we just sat and talked for like hours on  end. Then around 1pm it became hellish because everyone was running up and down trying to get everything sorted and all.
I was in the kitchen like cooking and trying to prepare the salad and what not.

The day it self was epic, Me and my other sister and my friend just had our own little party of our own. We just grabbed some beer, some food and went and chilled infront of my shed. We had a great time in our lil 3 girl party.

Pictures.


It got a little cold during the day



All doll'd up. My girl (left) looks beautiful!

When you've had a few, it all ends like this!

Showing som lurrv...

wtf!

Guys, I think I am under some sort of attack. Like really, yesterday I was spending time with my love interest and it was cute and we were having fun, then something happened that changed the whole dynamics of everything. Then I go home and there is chaos. Like I walk through my front door and I am greeted with complete silence. I knew something was up. Later that evening, I hear about something that is going on with my sister and at this point I'm just mad at the whole world. Like it's crazy the shit that is going on that i know nothing about.

Like I feel defeated in some way because its like I have no control over anything and everything is falling apart. And guess what shit I found out today like an hour ago.

Lemme start from the beginning. I bank with Lloyds TSB, I have done so for a few years now and suddenly my account is under attack. I got my paycheck , obvo, Friday is pay day and i put it into my account. I try to buy some shoes and my card gets declined! I don't worry about it too much because I am thinking , like maybe the check has not cleared yet but uh uh bitches. Apparently , someone has used my card to buy an expensive item and the banks don't know who or what the person is buying.

This is sad!!  I'm so sad I had to do a post at work.


MOT Girl x

Bus strike me down!

Oh my readers! What the hell! What is wrong with bus drivers! Okay so London just had a brain fart today and decided to take a bus strike! Like are you crazy! People use those things you know. So I've just come home from work where I have had to walk everywhere(just saying) and I forgot to get extra money to get a cab home because obviously I usuly take the bus , like duh, I'm not fucking Kate Middleton where my chariot awaits. I'm not even trying to loose weight but it seems like I have been doing a lot of walking and eating healthy! I like my big ass! I am so tired like there is no words! My feet are tired and sweaty and I just need a HOT bath! Like right now! I just wanted you all to k ow. Hmm tired and there is like trouble in paradise as well so double whammy ! Ffs! Enjoy your evening guys, those who can that is. I'm Gonna put my feet in some ice. MOT girl x

Great expectations

What a loser I have been today! So the guy that I have been seeing texted me this morning saying 'morning beautiful' how cute right. Then he's like I want to ask you something, so I'm thinking we are going to make it official. I get so excited , get all ready and all that and go to his house. We have a great time just being in each others company , laughing , kissing. So I ask him what he wanted to say and guess what? He wasn't making it official. I bit my tongue and still managed to have a great time with him. So why am I feeling like this? There was a hiccup effort regarding myself and someone else so I wanted to reassure him that he could trust me and the reply I got back was not pleasant. I meant to others it may not be as hurtful but to me , because I care about him I would say that yes I am hurt. I don't know what to say or do because I don't want to argue or anything like that. Hmmm , what to do? MOT girl x

6 mil , 3 months

Guys I heard this and I had to share. So many of you may know that I do Law in college. Well my law class and I went on a field trip to two courts, The Royal Courts of Justice and The Old Baileys.

Guess how much a layer at the Royal Court of Justice gets paid for an hour for a high profile case . . . £2,000!!! I was like WHAT??? That is Irrrr! I turned to my law teacher and told him 'Name .... you are in the wrong profession'. Then he was like 'Don't you think I like interacting with my students?' I was like 'No! You hate us'. We all laughed it off because it was funny but slightly true. But it is crazy, one layer our guide spoke about was going to bag 3 million pounds after defending some high profile guy for three months.

I needs me to hurry up and get me a Law Degree and a Masters and find me a job in London. Shiiitittt!

MOT girl x

Some women asked for my card!

Let me just start it from here. I did a talk on sexual health on behalf of my mother. Because I am a teenager, it's easy for the other teens to relate obviously being one of my peers. So I did the talk the best I could with statistics and you facts so that I knew I was not talking shit when I started dropping figures and all of that. The speech to me was not that long at all. It was about 5 mins long and the topic was close to home. My mum has like literally drawn it into my brain that I get it completely and I do my own research.

- so after my speech I was just talking on the phone to my friend and these ladies come up to me and ask if I had a card (like I was some kind of public speaker and that maybe that was my job). I looked at them and told them my age so that they would get the idea that this isn't my day to day work. They were even more excited about the fact that I was so young and they insisted I give them my number.

Long story short , I gave it to them and they stayed talking to me about what I said during the speech. I just thought I had to share this because it's liberating. Anyway, enjoy the rest of your day.

MOT girl x

What NOT to do at work!

I don't know about you guys but because of the holidays my sleeping patterns are messed up!
I would go to sleep at about 3 in the morning and wake up at like 5! What sort of logic is that? I think because my body is so a costumed to wake up in a blind panic to ensure that I'm not late for college that even when I DON'T want to wake up I do.

Maybe it's just silliness but like when when I was going to college , I would beg my body to wake up early. And it's not like I don't go to bed early , I would go to bed around 10pm to wake up by 7am so I have enough sleep but NOOOOO! I don't wake up till about like 8:30 when I got a class for like 9! What kinda messe up sh*t is that?

And get this , I have been falling asleep at work. I get that my job may be a little you slow due to the fact that I sit behind a desk an answer phones and bla bla bla. But it is no excuse to fall asleep. I have no idea what is going on with my body. I just had to put it out there because I had talks with my boss yesterday and we were reviewing my behaviour. Thank God I didn't get fired or anything. I just don't know what is going on. Like i'm confused!


- // sidebar, so we're having a little get together at my house tomorrow. Be sure to check out the events of that day. I may be too busy to tweet but I will try, and I will be blogging about it too.
@irenejehu < follow :)
MOT girl x

Updates

Hey guys,

I know I haven't posted in a while. Want to say sorry about that. This post is to just update you on what's been going on in my life. It's non stop. Okay so , I just recently finished all my exams so I am a free bird. Currently working in a Law firm to earn some money.

Me & two of the boys from the group

1. I got involved voluntarily with Romance Academy as a Leader. That meant teaching teenagers about sex and relationship. It wasn't patronising at all. All the kids felt safe and they enjoyed it a lot. They did not want it to be over. It was a 14 week course where the young teens would come to a certain venue on a certain day (we chose Wednesdays)for about 3 hours and we just explored. Every week had a different topic that we looked it. The graduation was on the 23rd May. It was fab. I've put some pictures up on my facebook. I think one or two on twitter. Check them out if you can.

2. As you may or may not know, I write reviews for the website www.swallowourwords.org.uk. Check it out if you can. Its sassy and stylish and cool. ummm, Yeah. I took a break from it due to exams but I am slowly getting back in there. Just need to up my game. Its really hard because I have got a lot going but I will always try make time for them.

3. OMG! My mum totally surprised me. I got chosen to be 'Role Model of the Month' which was extremely sweet. I did not expect it at all. With my mum's help 'The SOS Show' (an independat org) surprised me with a camera crew and flowers and gift for the work I did or do for charity l. I was so touched and surprised. I felt very honoured to be chosen because obviously I am most definitely NOT the only young person that does things for charity so I felt blessed. They asked me queations about what I do and why I do it. It was most defo a great experience. Pictures of that are on Facebook as well.

I cut my hair as well. I'm really lookin forward to summer to see what God has in stall for me and all that. Unmm , yeah my mind is still on over drive. Thinking about changing the name of this blog though. To a more simple one like my name?
Follow me on twitter @irenejehu and most definitely watch this space!