Oh god! I feel like I could die right now! After a depressing Sunday with me by myself in a fairly sized house doing nothing but staring. I must have stared so much that my eyes stung when I tried to blink. Dear God!!!!
I have no idea where the depressing state came from that day. I had a decent morning. Well basically, Saturday night after going to the Olympics , I'm home in bed half conscious when I hear familiar voices and it only takes me seconds to realize that my sister and her boyfriend have come to stay for the night. GREEEEEAAAAATTTT :/.
So after a restless sleep , I DON'T want to wake up anytime before 11 at the latest on a Sunday morning. And guess what time I woke up.. 6 bloody 30! I don't even wake up that early when I need to go to work. Sods law i said out loud and screamed into my pillow! FUCK!!
Anyway, after a busy morning with everyone getting ready to do something of some sort I'm stuck being still. I'm on my bed, not moving at all. The only movement I manage is my blinking eyes. After everyone had left I grabbed my laptop and started watching movies for the WHOLE day. Eating was not on this depressing agenda. I grabbed a huge bottle of water from our fridge and that was my only source of 'food' until about 11. Like really? Who am I? Why all of a sudden do I feel a relapse. Depression is behind me for Godsakes. I thought about talking to my mum but I thought feck it. There is no way she will understand how I am feeling at this moment. To be fair, I didn't understand why I felt like that!
Let me not bore you all with my ranting. It's Monday and my spirits are seriously low. Feck!
MOT Girl x
