Hey guys, It's Wednesday!! It's the middle of the week. Pay day in two days and a right messy piss up! who's excited? I am!!
So guys, I have been have been slightly unhappy with whats going on with me and my beau. Like things are rocky a little bit. Maybe it's just how I see it but, what it is is that we have a great time when we are together. But as soon as we leave each other like something happens like I hurt myself and he wants me to check it and i refuse to and it angers him and we fight. I put my hands up , I'm not the most forward person ever. Like you if you ask me a question and I am not comfortable with it or it angers me . . . I will answer back WITH another question. And if I tell you that I will tell you later, it means exactly that. No matter what you do or say, you won't get it out of me!
But I mean , I miss him. I haven't seen him for like 3 days because I have been at work and I finish late. He is busy doing what he does. You know, just doing him and being the business man that he is. We don't trust each other mainly because I have trust issues and so does he but we both trust our feelings for each other and we thrive on that. Which works for us, like we are content with our situation but I just wish I wouldn't second guess him all the time. Sometimes when he tells me it's me he wants to be with, like I think about it and sometimes I don't believe it. It's like no matter what, even if I am super angry with him when I am away from him , when I see him its like I forget why I was mad at him in the first place.
I planned to just be angry with him in this post but I have no reason to be. I just miss him and I wish I spent everyday with him. I don't believe in 'Love' so it's a bit tricky because he does , and he believes that one day I will find it. I slightly think that maybe he thinks that I won't love him and will love someone else but that's not something he should worry about. I mean I like him a lot. That should be enough for him no? Like I have no other way of showing him how much I care about him and how much I want to make him happy.
I'm happy to tell the whole world that in a sense , my beau got me whipped.
MOT Girl x
